How I've Already Accomplished 70% of My 2019 Goals
2019 HAS ALREADY BEEN EVERYTHING I HAVE DREAMED IT TO BE…& MORE.
Don’t believe me? Let me show you.
The first week of January, I published this post detailing all of the things I wanted to do by 2020. We are officially half-way through the new year, & here is an honest line by line of where I’m at:
i have honestly been crushing my goals & truly, i am so proud of myself. i need to dream bigger tho. i will be asking for a whole lot more. expect a 2019 2.0 list coming your way soon. “ask & you shall receive,” they say. This year taught me how to ask.
we celebrate the failures too, because they give us so much opportunity to learn & re-route. as you can see, one of the goals that CRUSHED me was my commitment to write daily. clearly I fell off in February, so in my next post, i will catch you up on all of the things I’ve been up to since then.
today, i want to talk about the three main life/mindset changes that had to happen before all of this 2019 excellence. i only recently have been able to look back and understand the 3 absolute GAMECHANGERS that have paved the way for this success. here they are.
LETTING GO & LETTING GOD.
CUTTING TIES WITH TOXIC OR NEUTRAL RELATIONSHIPS (TO PEOPLE, MINDSETS, HABITS, MATERIALS, ETC.)
LEAD WITH LOVE & GRACE
i find it really important to point out that i had no idea these would be game-changers. i was just doing what felt right. i was in desperate need of a change, so i started by trusting my intuition.
i hope you can learn from what i did wrong & right & hopefully apply it to your life so you can kill it the way you are supposed to.
it was january 2017 when i originally decided i would let go & let god. basically, this meant i would stop trying to control everything & submit to a greater, all-knowing power. i started seeing myself as someone who is being used by god to do something more meaningful. i have always had an incredibly strong intuition, so i decided to accept it as a gift from above, and start to use it to help me best listen to what god wanted from me.
i had no clue that giving myself permission to let go of some control would help me move through life lighter & more self-loving.
immediately, in letting go & letting god, i began to see everything through a lens that was so much bigger than me & my day to day interactions, decisions, feelings, etc. everything started to connect to something greater that god was trying to show me. it became immediately clear that i was put on this planet to do big things. i began really leaning into this “purpose search” and realized that my heart has always been with dearborn. that i was uniquely positioned to create something that would put my city on the map.
i found my north star, right in my backyard.
something kind of crazy happened after that. every single habit, person, mindset that did not align with this long-term vision suddenly stuck out like a sore thumb. it was like god was highlighting all of the hindrances to me being able to achieve these goals. while god made it painfully simple for me to see the things that “did not belong,” it was grueling work to remove myself from these habits, mindsets, people, etc.
admittedly, that part is still hard for me. i still lose sleep thinking about the people i have undoubtedly hurt in the process. the heartbreak we both feel. some of these people are great people. i still love them, but i love them from afar because they are not meant to walk with me on this journey. i wasn’t so sure of that before, which made it harder, but i promised i would trust god. so i listened to what he was telling me. & now i am crystal clear positive that just as they are not right for me, i am not right for them either.
I HAVE MADE MANY SACRIFICES IN THE NAME OF MY PURPOSE.
i have uprooted one life to plant seeds for another. in many ways, i do not recognize the broken, misaligned dreamer who would dim her light on the daily. i love her so much, but i don’t have much in common with that girl anymore. like her old habits, she died hard. i’ve learned that past versions of me will continue dying to give birth to all i am meant to be.
so finally, after deciding to let go & let god, and then change my external environment to align with what god wanted from me, i needed to start walking in my purpose. actively. every single day. every conversation. every decision. every move with intention. leading with love & with grace in all that i do. that intention is what i am most focused on right now. i want to truly become the leader i need to be in order to have the kind of impact god has told me i am meant to have.
a lot of leading with love/grace has involved this newfound crazy belief in myself. it’s an audacious belief. i don’t know where this self-assurance came from (i can guess it’s from god), but i’ll take it. it is helping me be better & do better, so i’ll take it. i am overflowing with love & gratitude these days. all the voices in my head are friends now. they may challenge each other, hold each other accountable, poke healthy fun at one another, but they truly have a deep love & respect for another.
no more negative self talk.
i’m just so humbled by every minute of this process. i do not take it for granted. i look back, & i am in awe at how things have played out. all of it. the blood, sweat, tears, trauma, imposter syndrome, guilt, fear. all of it was there to show me all of the daunting forces i would eventually outlive.
& HERE I AM LIVING BEAUTIFULLY.