DailyRi 040: My Pretty Purple Planet Explained

I LIVE ON MY OWN PLANET.

 
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I have had a fixation with what i call “MY PRETTY PURPLE PLANET” LATELY - SO MUCH SO THAT I BOUGHT a HAT with a pretty purple planet on it.

I EVEN MADE my pretty purple planet the focal point of this year’s vision board. WITHOUT FURTHER EXPLANATION, IT MIGHT SEEM LIKE ANOTHER CUTE SYMBOL ADDED ON TO MY RAINBOWS, BUTTERFLIES AND UNICORNS. BUT IT ACTUALLY MEANS WAY WAY WAY MORE TO ME THAN THAT.

I MOVED INTO MY PRETTY PURPLE PLANET AFTER A SESSION I HAD WITH A LEADERSHIP COACH AT ROSS THAT ACTUALLY ENDED UP BEING MORE OF A THERAPY SESSION FOR ME. IN THIS SESSION, I WAS ABLE TO UNPACK SOME BAGGAGE THAT I HAVE BEEN CARRYING WITH ME SINCE I WAS A TEENAGER. HERE’S HOW IT WENT.

MY COACH ASKED ME TO IDENTIFY PIVOTAL POINTS IN MY LIFE AND DESCRIBE VIA SYMBOLS OR PERSONAS WHAT THOSE MOMENTS FELT LIKE FOR ME. IT WAS UNCOMFORTABLE AT FIRST, BUT NATURALLY, I ENDED UP CHARACTERIZING THESE PHASES AS THE YOUNGER VERSION OF MYSELF, THE CURRENT VERSION OF MYSELF, AND THE WOMAN I AM WORKING TO BECOME. IN THIS SESSION, MY COACH ASKED ME TO IMAGINE THAT WE WERE ALL SITTING TOGETHER IN ONE ROOM. AFTER WE TALKED THROUGH SOME OF THE DIALOGUE BETWEEN THESE VERSIONS OF MYSELF, IT BECAME CLEAR THAT MY YOUNGER SELF WAS SUCH A DEFENSIVE PERSON BECAUSE SHE FELT AFRAID, HELPLESS AND VOICELESS IN MANY SITUATIONS. THAT PART WASN’T SO MUCH OF A BREAKTHROUGH.

IT WAS THE GAP BETWEEN WHO I AM AND WHO I AM BECOMING WAS WHERE THE BREAKTHROUGH WAS. I HAVE BECOME AN EXTREMELY OUTSPOKEN PERSON AS A RESULT OF FEELING HELPLESS AND VOICELESS IN A PAST LIFE. BUT WHEN I THINK OF WHO I AM TRYING TO BE, THAT WOMAN ACTUALLY JUST EMANATES LOVE AND PEACE. SHE IS POWERFUL WITHOUT SAYING A WORD. AND OF COURSE, WHEN SHE NEEDS TO SPEAK UP, SHE DOES SO IN SUCH A CALM, COLLECTED AND GRACEFUL WAY. SHE NEVER RELINQUISHES HER POWER. WHY? BECAUSE SHE IS ACTUALLY CONVINCED THAT SHE HAS IT.

THE CURRENT ME (AT LEAST THE ONE SITTING IN THAT ROOM A COUPLE MONTHS AGO) WASN’T ENTIRELY CONVINCED OF HER POWER. I REALIZE THAT SOME OF MY MOST OUTSPOKEN MOMENTS ARE MERELY A COMPENSATION FOR THE WAYS IN WHICH I STILL FEEL VERY HELPLESS AND DEFENSIVE. WHILE THE OLD ME WOULD COWER AND SHRINK UP, THE OLDER, EQUALLY FEARFUL ME WOULD FEEL LIKE SHE NEEDED TO BE A FEROCIOUS BEAST TO CONVINCE OTHERS OF HER STRENGTH. IT STILL FEELS THE SAME THOUGH. THE CURRENT ME AND THE OLD ME STILL HAVE A WHOLE LOT IN COMMON, AND I NEEDED THESE WOMEN TO OCCUPY THE SAME ROOM FOR ME TO NOTICE THEIR RESEMBLANCE.

WHICH BRINGS ME TO MY PRETTY PURPLE PLANET.

MY COACH WISELY ASKED ME TO GET UP AND FORGET ABOUT THESE THREE CHARACTERS FOR A SECOND. SHE ASKED ME TO LIKEN THE WOMAN I AM BECOMING INTO ANOTHER PHYSICAL OBJECT, PERHAPS AN ANIMAL OR SOMETHING WITH ENERGY. I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT ABOUT A BEAUTIFUL, MAJESTIC PLANET, AND FOR SOME REASON, I WANTED IT TO BE PURPLE WITH A TEAL RING AROUND IT. BARE WITH ME LOL.

I EXPLAINED THAT THE PLANET IS IN CONSTANT ORBIT AROUND ITS SUN (MY PURPOSE), AND ITS STEADILY REVOLVING AROUND ITSELF WITH OTHER THINGS IN ITS ORBIT. IN ORDER FOR A PLANET TO REVOLVE GRACEFULLY, ALL THINGS IN ITS ENERGY FORCE/GRAVITATIONAL PULL NEED TO BE CONDUCIVE TO THE PLANET DOING WHAT THE PLANET WAS PLACED THERE TO DO. I FEEL THIS WAY ABOUT MY LIFE. I AM DOING A GREAT JOB WALKING IN ALIGNMENT WITH MY PURPOSE, AND I AM STARTING TO DO A GREAT JOB AT MAKING SURE ALL OF THE THINGS, HABITS, MINDSETS, PEOPLE, OPPORTUNITIES, ETC. THAT ARE IN MY LIFE ARE CONDUCIVE TO ME STAYING IN ALIGNMENT. AND WHEN THEY ARE NOT, I EITHER GET RID OF THEM, OR KEEP THEM AT A FAR ENOUGH DISTANCE TO WHERE THEY DO NOT MESS WITH MY ENERGY.

HONESTLY THIS SESSION HELPED ME SO MUCH.

I HAVE BEEN REFLECTING ON WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A PRETTY PURPLE PLANET IN CHALLENGING SITUATIONS, AND I HAVE HAD NO SHORTAGE OF TESTS SINCE THEN. I HAVE BEEN PASSING WITH FLYING COLORS, AND I ATTRIBUTE MY GROWTH TO HAVING SUCH A POWERFUL METAPHOR TO HELP ME MAKE SENSE OF CHALLENGING MOMENTS.

only love,

ri


WHAt’s THIS Dailyri SERIES?

INTRODUCING THE DAILYRi SERIES.

Inspired by Gary Vaynerchuck’s DailyVees, DailyRi is my daily commitment to documenting my #roadtorima, in shorter form riflections, 1) because writing makes me happy, and 2) i’ve become obsessed with walking in my purpose & drafting a story that I can be proud of.

SO I’LL BE HERE EVERY DAY.