DailyRi 009: Honoring My Introverted Side While In School
CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF, I AM NOT AN EXTROVERT.
actually, most of us fall somewhere in the middle.
& life can make us teeter between the two extremes. i took the meyers-briggs 16 personalities test for fun recently, & though my results changed drastically since college, i can’t say i was really surprised. i’m right smack dab in the center between an extravert & introvert.
over the past couple years, I have grown more & more introverted, & less & less ashamed of it. i’ve always had introverted tendencies: needing time alone, not wanting to be the center of attention, getting anxious in large crowds, & needing my space & time to reenergize.
but most people see the super extraverted side of me (the loud laugh, life of the party, silly jokester, social butterfly) & assume that’s my mode of operation. most people are surprised to hear that i can be socially anxious in many environments, that, most nights, i would rather be home, candles lit, listening to music & doing something therapeutic like making a vision board (my version of fun).
the truth is that i need serious time alone & in my own head in order to be that fun-loving, energetic person most people are used to. i wouldn’t be able to sustain that energy without my introversion, but i didn’t always give myself this gift.
in the past, i didn’t understand my spirit when it begged me to stay in instead of go out. i would force myself to get up & be social when i really just needed a day to myself. i felt like i was being lame or insecure or whatever other judgmental idea i had about my preferences.
i just recently started accepting & embracing that part of myself, & i’m so much better for it. i legitimately do not experience fomo (what’s fomo?). i’m so thankful for this level of self awareness before the madness that is a full-time MBA program.
understanding & honoring my introverted side has been the driving force between many key decisions that are certainly uncommon: from deciding to commute from dearborn instead of living on campus (90 min of driving daily) to blocking off an entire day each week on my calendar for “me” time. i’ve been such a happy, energized, positive person because of these kinds of decisions. i followed my gut & with one semester in the books, i can proudly say that i knew what i needed.
something as seemingly menial as understanding that i’m an ambivert is going to help me significantly in my entrepreneurial ventures. and it most certainly will help me be a better friend, lover, sibling, etc.
I DON’T DOWNPLAY SELF AWARENESS ONE BIT.